__________________Always There For You*]]

Saturday, July 31, 2004
*i wish i could tell u my feelings.. tt it didn't hurt when u walk away.. but to tell u e truth i couldn't find my way*

now i finally realize how much i mean to u.....i noe how much u love mi.... and the much is actually nth.. u found someone new juz after week we break.. dun say u wans mi to be happy! cos tt is all bull shit.. I noe my own happiness and i dun need u to decide for mi...wat do u take mi as? to u, am i reali tt forgettable? u aren't the one i used to noe and love anymore.. u change so drastically tt i couldn't recongnise u anymore... u are not the sunhong i used to noe.. the one which will do anything juz bcos u wanna see a smile on my face.. not the one who will goes to all extend juz to make mi happy... u used to say u would..... but i noe how much tt actually means now...

how i wish u would noe how i feel.. tt all this u are doing is hurting mi like crazy.. tt i couldn't stop myself frm loving u.. tt i couldn't forget e memories we share. cos to mi, no one can take tt away.. but to u.... i'm all forgotten... i used to believe tt no matter how bad u are, u wun stead with a ger so fast.. tt's wat makes mi wait n wait and WAIT.. but u made mi realise.. tt loving n crying for u was a waste of my time.... i believe tt love could change someone.... but i guess my impact on u wasn't tt big..........

i was forever thinking... why do i love u? why? after all the things u had done.. wat the hell is in u tt attracts mi to u? i couldn't find my ans....... it was den i realise.... i lost the sunhong i reali love long ago....u were dead ever since u change into someone new... u wasn't the one who was shy cute and sweet anymore.... u wasn't! now. i finally see the real side of u....... i dunnoe wat to say.. cos i do still love u.. i dun wanna noe how u are doing cos i noe it would hurts mi more... onli one thing i could really see frm this whole story.... tt is.... in ur heart.. i was actually nothing all along............................

Missing You
At 9:06 PM