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Sunday, May 30, 2004
*to my darling*
suppose to meet u at 1030 today.. lolx.. but due to gers need of time to 'da ban', i met u at 1130.. sorry dear.. haiz..we had quite alot of fun at first.. took 317.. den wen to N&B to eat.. now i realise tt u dun like to eat beancurd.. haiz.. tell mi wat u eat? dun eat veggie, dun eat cheese, dun drink milk, dun wan this, dun wan tt.. boys still so fussy about food.. eat burger also need to take out e veggie first... anything got cheese den dun wan le.. hahaz.. but tt's my dear anyway.. after tt.. juz laze n walk around.. until 1430.. and finally meet e rest of the peeps to go andy's bbq...about 3 plus lidat reach there.. haiz.. itz was raining so so heavily when we r in e bus.. when we get down e bus, we r suppose to ran arcoss n climb up e bridge.. lolx.. all of us were drenched.. the wind is blowing against mi... my lips were shivering... nonetheless, u was damn cold too... but u gave mi a hug.. n i feel so warm... u held my hands.. n rubbed it with care.. i could almost melt in the temperature u gave mi despite of e rain........ went to eat in e hawker anyway.. dunnoe why... u sudden;y became so quiet n told mi tt u felt so useless... when i heard this, i felt so hurt.. felt sad tt u say such a thing of urself.. but sweetie.. i wan u to noe tt u ARE NOT useless.. i dun care why u say so.. but as long as to mi, u are useful.. u can make mi sad when i'm happy... anyone can do tt.. but onli u can make mi happy when i'm sad.. onli u.. u are nv useless.. cos as long as there is mi, u are useful! so dunch say such things okie? after tt, we went to buy stuff for e bbq.. and we waited reali long for andy n rahman to cum back cos they go take chicken wings..wondering izzit due to e time i was so bored n so irritated cos v long, tt i turn to hostile towards u.. i dunnoe.. but suddenly feel so sad n lost all my mood to play... sorry to drag u into my weird mood too.. feel so sianz.. so i wan go home le.. u say want to pei me walk out.. but i said no.. guess i juz need some time alone.. i reali dunnoe wat happen to mi... but still, u accompained mi to take bus.. u gave mi a hug n a peck on my cheek b4 i left..but this time i wasn't as happy... u asked mi to sms u when i board e bus.. n i did.. i told u to go play n enjoy urself.. said i dun wan to disturb u.. n ask u to sms mi when u r done......... but till now 1030.. u still have not sms mi....... wonder am i forgotten or izzit tt u can't be bothered.... i'm so lost...... why izzit tt love will fade? n alws e boys to be e one....? i lost my trust......in u...................

Missing You
At 9:49 PM